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Living our Lush life, seven children, a battle with cancer and a whole lot of life lessons.
An honest insight into daily life. Past and present highs and lows as a family of 9. Where we've been and where we are going. A place to organise thoughts and stories as we muddle through, this is the Von Tatchenstine's blog....
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I've been avoiding you.
I'm sorry I've been hiding, avoiding words feelings and you. I've made it 531 days without Dex so far but nothing much has changed from...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jan 10, 20249 min read
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Running up that hill
I've not been writing at all in the last three months. Not in my grief journal or here and barely at work. I have to make myself write...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jul 2, 20239 min read
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Little Miss Deathly & another's poison pen.
March has been unbearably painful, full of firsts and a stark reminder that life continues even with the deepest wounds. Dexter's legacy...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Apr 3, 20239 min read
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Retrospective Torture
Looking back at treatment and care when you're not in the thick of a living nightmare, is a nightmare itself when it all comes into...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Feb 6, 202310 min read
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Miss Narcissist? - As Courtney Love would say
This week, on Friday was my first experience of bereavement counselling. It was an hour all about me (or not, but my voice as the one I...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jan 30, 202312 min read
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A FATHER WHO'S LOST HEART
VOCALISING PAIN IS SOMETHING MOTHERS DO SO WELL, BUT THE MEN WHO STAND BESIDE US ARE AS BROKEN AND WOUNDED, YET SILENCED BY THEIR BELIEF...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jan 23, 20238 min read
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The witching hour
WITCHES AND SPIRITS ARE RUMOURED TO CIRCLE AT THIS HOUR, BUT ITS YOUR OWN THOUGHTS YOU SHOULD GUARD YOURSELF FROM. Those that know me and...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jan 13, 202314 min read
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Moving into 2023 is moving further away from Dex
WITH EVERY DAY THAT ENDS, ITS ONE STEP FURTHER FROM THE DAYS WE ONCE SPENT TOGETHER. 2023 has begun, we all make resolutions....
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jan 3, 20234 min read
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DAYS WITHOUT DEXTER
Our wonderful Dexter died on the 27th of July, 2022. It was harrowing and hard, nothing like Jack and I had ever expected or experienced...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Aug 25, 202211 min read
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When resilience shines
I can't tell you how painful it is to be told that your child has a matter of weeks to live. The closest I can possibly describe is...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jul 15, 20225 min read
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THE HAUNTING OF MAGPIES
It's been some time since I've written anything, I love to write but finding the energy is increasingly hard this year, and last year we...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jun 15, 20226 min read
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Dexter turns Seven
This is a short and sweet post about the joy it was to be with Dex as he turned seven this week, it was a crazy week, two birthdays for...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Aug 23, 20213 min read
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Jack Von Tatch talks ...
One thing I really didn’t want Dexter to go through was having a feeding tube (gastrostomy tube) inserted into his stomach. It was...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Aug 7, 20218 min read
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Friends and Family .
Relationships and connections we have with people are built over common interest, time, blood or maybe shared experiences. What we have...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Aug 7, 20218 min read
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Forging a new normal
I've been quiet for quite some time. We've been trying to get through this year unscathed, but the doctors appointments are still coming...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
May 17, 20216 min read
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A new year with new fears
The year started off bright, Dexter having finished treatment before, a year of chemotherapy, maintenance and seven weeks of radiation...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Jan 9, 20214 min read
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The arrival of covid and Quill
On the 20th March, I arrive home, huge and ready to have a baby. My heart is heavy leaving Dexter in Manchester, knowing that he had been...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Dec 12, 20208 min read
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Off to Manchester to save a life.
We had visited UCLH in London and spoken to experts about the god awful side effects; we'd visited manchester and saw where would be...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Nov 24, 20207 min read
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Back to Dexters battle...
The days before Christmas were long and unknowing, we had all the information on the type of cancer Dexter was facing, we had the...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Oct 26, 20209 min read
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0H SO QUIET.
The end of the summer is always hectic for us as a family, we have two little Leo's and virgo birthdays all within August. It's...
Tatty Von Tatchenstine
Sep 22, 20206 min read
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